Meet Indigo

I am a 26 year old trans woman. I feel like I’m a person that is extremely in touch with my emotions. I feel like emotions really play a large part in how I operate day to day and how interact with the world.

If you don’t talk about emotions they end up getting bottled up and then there is an explosion that could have been avoided.

As a trans woman, I feel like I kind of have the blessing to be able to have seen life through both lenses on both sides of the gender spectrum. But I’ve never really lived as an adult man before. You know, I very much have always been a feminine person. 

With COVID and the limitations that have been placed on us, a lot of my coping mechanisms have gone away and I literally had to figure out how to just sit with myself and my depression all winter long and figure out how to not kill myself. 

Before the pandemic, everything was going pretty good, actually, like things were starting to look up. I was on a good trajectory with work. I had friends that I was seeing on a regular basis and hanging out with on a regular basis. And all that fell apart. COVID basically took all of that stuff from me and kind of made it where my mental health is not where it should be. And now I’m more depressed than not depressed. And so I’m kind of feeling like, you know, this sucks. 

How do we get back to the more happy days?

My whole family has really stepped up recently. I’ve gone through some real crazy things over the past year, like becoming homeless, losing a vehicle and some more stuff. And they just really stepped up. And this isn’t like biological families. They don’t hold any kind of obligation to me, but they still have stepped up and showed me so much love and just took care of all the things that needed taking care of.

Without that happening. I wouldn’t be sitting here having this conversation for sure, I’d be somewhere else doing something else.

The thing I’d like access to is a therapist, honestly, just mental health care, even like a group session every once in a while with other humans that are going through, not necessarily the same things I’m going through, but just similar types of things. That would be really helpful. I feel like it would make me feel less alone.